Sexuality-What a fucking mess.

sex·u·al·i·ty ( P ) (sksh-l-t)n.
The condition of being characterized and distinguished by sex.
Concern with or interest in sexual activity.
Sexual character or potency.

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I don't know what I am anymore.

Am I straight?
Am I gay?
Am I bi?

I just can't tell anymore.

I find boys cute and attractive. I've had crushes on plenty of boys:

Camui Gackt
Billie Joe Armstrong
Mike Dirnt

I find girls beautiful, too. I've had crushes on plenty of girls:

Gwen Stefani
Angelina Jolie
Hamasaki Ayumi

I'm not sure what to think any more.
Sometimes I find boys disgusting. Penises are ugly...

Yet at the same time, I want to be held by a boy. I want my hair stroked and to be told that I'm loved.
Sometimes I'm jealous of boys, to the point of begging my mom for a sex change(happened a few weeks ago).

Other times I hate girls. Hate! I hate them all, myself included.
Other times, I love girls. I feel like they are the only ones I can trust, like they are the only ones I'm able to love.

I'm not sure. I'm just not fucking sure anymore.

Any advice would be very appreciated.

Thanks...